I have been into squandering my time lately. [At least I cleaned my room.] College is complicated. It's not as exciting as I thought it was going to be. I'm waiting/trying to make it better. I spend half my time agonizing and the other have fucking around, and not in a fun way, in a mind-numbing unproductive way.
I miss feeling comfortable.
I miss feeling special. I think that college is turning me into mush instead of helping me grow.
Maybe I just think everything is not so good because I have a headache. Maybe I should eat something. At least I don't have to wake up as early tomorrow. I haven't done my reading.
College is bringing out all my weaknesses. My mom is involved in a business where she will lose a tremendous amount of money. I'm afraid she's spent the money she put away for my education. I think i'm going to take a walk. Did you know that they tell you not to walk around by yourself at night here? Isn't that rediculous? I think I might just do it anyway.
My roommate isn't home yet. She went to an extra help session for Bio. I want people to come and visit me.
Maybe i'll decorate my room now. It's been a month and I've put up a poster.
Maybe I'll paint my wall. My ' key doesnt <-- always work and its annoying.
Geese, my head hurts. I already took excedrin. my body can be so rediculous. I've been being so good.
I think the fact that I don't have AIM on my computer makes everything a little more silly.
I'm going to Powell House in November. (I think). It will be so relaxing.
Any scraps of help from you college people out there???? Or you confident not college people???
My life was a lot more wonderful before. I feel a little pathetic.